Are you finally old enough to stay in bed on a Sunday reading until noon?

I have had this guilt thing over doing nothing my entire life. It probably comes from my Midwest roots – roots deep into the mindset that if you aren’t working you are worthless. The mindset that whispers “if someone rings the doorbell you had better have a dust rag in your hand when you answer or the neighbors will know you are a slacker.”

But these cultural attitudes don’t come out of nowhere.

There was a reason farm people never stopped working: they never knew what “done” felt like. There was always something more that begged for their time. 

In today’s world of modern appliances, innovation and technology, we do have the luxury to simply kick back for a few hours now and then and not work.

I know I will always “look for work” (as a friend of mine recently said), because I love to experience what my work brings into reality. But I have decided that I can stay in bed on a lazy Sunday morning and read until noon.

Oliver Burkeman addresses this subject in the Guardian this week. He says it better than I just have. Enjoy!

In your own time: how to live for today the philosophical way.

Oliver Burkeman from the Guardian/June 10.22

Arguably the most useless observation ever made by an ancient Greek philosopher – putting aside, for now, Pythagoras’s theory that fava beans contained the souls of the dead – was Epicurus’s argument that we shouldn’t fear death, because we won’t be around when it happens. Nobody gets upset about the fact that they didn’t exist before their birth, he reasoned, so why feel bad about the fact that you won’t exist again soon?

But I’ve never met anyone who found this remotely consoling. It would be one thing never to have been born in the first place. Once you’ve been born, you’re invested, whether you like it or not. And getting older is thus inevitably a matter of getting nearer and nearer to the certainty that, any day now, your finite time will run out before you’ve done more than a handful of the limitless number of things you could in principle have done with it, or spent more than a tiny flicker of time with the people you care about the most.

As if it weren’t cruel enough that your time is running out, you’ll also experience your dwindling years as passing more quickly.

“Up till now, life has seemed an endless upward slope, with nothing but the distant horizon in view,” said one patient quoted by the psychotherapist Elliott Jaques, who went on to coin the term “midlife crisis” – but “now suddenly I seem to have reached the crest of the hill, and there stretching ahead is the downward slope with the end of the road in sight”. “Downward” is the right word here, for multiple reasons, one of which is the implication of acceleration. As if it weren’t cruel enough that your time is running out, you’ll also experience your dwindling months and years as passing more quickly as you age. So you’ll have less and less time, and each portion of that time will feel less long.

What’s truly noteworthy about the awareness of finitude, though, isn’t the fact that it eventually grips most of us by the throat (at any age between about 35 and 65, according to Carl Jung, the great explorer of the “second half of life”) but that we manage to stave it off for so long. After all, from the viewpoint of the cosmos, a 10-year-old who is destined to live to 90 is only a tiny bit further from the end than they’ll be when they’re 80. It’s a testament to our evolved talent for postponing the confrontation with mortality that we manage to do all sorts of worthwhile things – launch careers, start families, acquire possessions, produce art – that we might forgo if we were paralysed by the knowledge that it would all be over so soon.

In the second half of life, though, there’s much to be said for abandoning the fight against the truth. A central feature of the modern experience of time is that we focus too heavily on instrumentalising it – on dwelling exclusively on our future purposes, hurrying through our lives to some point at the end of the day or the week when we can finally relax, or for some further-off moment, like when you finally get on top of your to-do list, or when the kids leave home, or you retire from work. The result is what’s been called the “when-I-finally” mindset: the sense that real fulfilment, or even real life itself, hasn’t quite arrived yet, so that present experience is merely something to get through, en route to something better. The person stuck in such a mindset, wrote John Maynard Keynes, “does not love his cat, but his cat’s kittens; nor, in truth, the kittens, but only the kittens’ kittens, and so on forward for ever to the end of cat-dom”.

It’s hard to shake the outlook entirely. But getting older helps, because the awareness that time is drawing to a close makes it increasingly untenable to live for the future. At 20, it’s easy to imagine that real life hasn’t properly begun, but at 40, it’s a bit of a stretch, and at 60 it’s plainly absurd. And so it becomes ever easier to face what was true all along: that this is real life. That there’s no impending moment of truth when you’ll finally feel in a better position to do whatever it is you really want to do with your time – and that the only viable moment in which to do it is right now.

You grasp the truth that life isn’t a dress rehearsal for something better, but you wish you’d figured that out sooner.

This is the point at which any sane person will feel at least a modicum of regret: you grasp the truth that life isn’t a dress rehearsal for something better, but you desperately wish you’d figured that out several decades sooner. The trick is not to try to deny or eradicate the regret, but not to let it stop you seizing the moment, either – because refusing to live fully on the grounds that you ought to have lived more fully in the past is as silly as refusing to live fully on the grounds that you’re still waiting to live fully in the future.

This, I think, is the kernel of truth in the cliched advice about the importance of “living in the moment”: not that you should try to meditate yourself into a mystical state of total presence or concentration, but just that to recognise the fact that the past is past, and that soon you won’t have any future left – so you really might as well be here. It’s not so bad. Often enough, it’s wonderful. And in any case, there’s nowhere else to be.

Oliver Burkeman’s most recent book is Four Thousand Weeks: Time and How To Use It.

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